Tuesday, 22 May 2007

Time flies so quickly...

Where has the time gone? I can't believe that it's been nearly 2 weeks since I updated. The weather last week was atrocious..and I got soaked coming home from my son and daughter-in-laws. It was good for the garden..but not for me...I felt as though I was coming down with flu. I did rest for a few days...not that I had any choice. Managed to get to town to meet my friend Anne, but I really felt disorientated. She wasn't feeling too hot herself, but we really do need these little trips out...it's the only social life we've got!!! The bus journey home wasn't too bad except for the fact that I fell when I tried to stand to get off. Falling is getting to be a bit of a habit with me. I fell down the stairs a couple of weeks ago.
The last few days have been beautiful weather wise and I have managed to get the garden tidied up. The privet hedges desperately needed cutting. That in itself isn't too hard to do as I borrow my sons hedge-trimmers. It's the clearing up that really gets to me. I'm getting so frustrated that I have to make a choice between housework and gardening. Okay..I hate housework..but it has to be done at sometime. Some things just won't wait!!!
I have managed to get a few cards done as well, despite my inspiration temporarily leaving me. At least I hope it is only temporary!! Between my daughter-in-law and myself we have a regular order of twenty simple cards a month...think we are getting on top of it now. We know what sort of cards are wanted and we have managed to get ahead...taking the pressure off a little. I don't have to worry too much if I don't manage to get as much done on bad days.
The tinnitus has returned with a vengeance. The constant buzzing is getting to me. It's not enough that I can't sleep well because of the pain in my joints, and finding a position which is comfortable is difficult...the noise can seem overwhelming at times. All I want is an undisturbed nights sleep!! This is worse than having young children....at least you expect disturbed nights with them. Oh what a topsy turvy world this is.

Friday, 11 May 2007

M.E Awareness.

I AM NOT A HAPPY BUNNY!!!! Today I received notification from my bank informing me that after careful consideration, they do not feel that my complaint about excessive, (should read extorionate), bank charges is justified, therefore do not feel obliged to reimburse me. It is not ending there. I will be forwarding my complaint to the financial ombudsman....huh!!..see what the bank has to say then! According to the FO the banks usually pay up or make a reasonable offer before a decision is made by the them. I see this as a delaying tactic by the banks so that they can hang on to my money a little bit longer and make even more profit for them. Watch this space
Last week the council arranged..by appointment ..to have my gas fire and boiler inspected and serviced...as is the law. I was out when the engineer arrived but my son was in. By the time he had got to the door the man was gone and a card was left informing me that he would be back today....Friday the 11th. No one turned up. I spent the whole day waiting. I wanted to go to bed this afternoon to rest..but I didn't dare.. I didn't want to miss the engineer. NOT HAPPY.
I don't usually go to bed during the day but I haven't been sleeping well again and I am exhausted. Rant over.
Saturday the 12th May is M.E. awareness day. Indeed May is M.E. awareness month. I know that there will be marches in London and petitions handed in at Downing Street. I can only applaud and give my heartfelt thanks to those brave and persistent campaigners who work tirelessly on behalf of the M.E. community. Without them we would be even less recognized than we are now.

Saturday, 5 May 2007

What a week...

What a week this has been. Monday saw me having to go into town on my own. I don't usually do this as I tend to get somewhat disorientated and flustered. There were only two places I had to go and there is a relatively short distance between them so I thought I would be OK. The journey into town by bus seemed to take forever. It was busy and there are ongoing roadworks building a new inner ring road. I finally arrived and went into the first shop..it was busy and I had quite a long wait in the queue. Got out of there and went to my bank. This was the main reason for having to go into town since my local branch has been shut down. Oh dear...must make mental note never to go again during lunch hours. Thirty five minutes wait in a seemingly never reducing queue. At last I was on my home. It was then that the sheer mental exhaustion set in. I wanted to get off the bus as quickly as possible..but I knew that I couldn't...it was the only way home. Tuesday saw me being able to do precisely nothing, except to rest and try and recover. Wednesday I was off into town again. This time it was to meet my friend for lunch. We usually have lunch and then spend a very pleasant couple of hours slowly meandering round the shops. Not today though, we were both tired. Instead we spent some time just sitting in the Peace Gardens. The proper name is the memorial gardens, but few actually call them that. It's very relaxing listening to the water flowing, and it was a beautiful day. Thursday..out again..this time my fortnightly jaunt to a freezer food shop with son and daughter-in-law. I didn't get half of what I needed...my brain just refused to comply with my request to concentrate and think.
Thursday was also polling day for the local councils. I didn't vote. Why? Well we were given the chance to vote online...but unfortunately the application for this service only reached me the day before the deadline...and as I had no idea who was standing for election due to not receiving any leaflets/canvassing material I felt that my vote wasn't really deemed important by the candidates. Apathy on my part perhaps, but I was not alone. The turnout for my district was a mere 31%. Perhaps future candidates will take note of that information for future reference.
The last two days have been spent mainly resting and doing only the minimum necessary. Sunday is my day for lunch at son and daughter-in-laws; hopefully I will be able to make it without too much of a drain on my energy.
On top of all this my mind has been elsewhere. It was a year ago that my soul mate..the man who I found love with, the man I was engaged to, the man who made my life so happy and loved me, lost his battle with cancer. I think a little bit of me died with him.